Micro Monday: #spoiled
I’ve always said that God has spoiled me.
Since I was a little girl, so many things have just come easily for me and the things I’ve wished for have always had a tendency to come true.
I got A’s without trying, made friends easily, got the solos I auditioned for and the scholarships I applied for and the boys I had crushes on were always online when I logged onto AIM. #blessed Once I prayed for matching dresses for my My Twin Doll and I (anyone else have one of those?) at bedtime and woke up to two matching dresses on my pillow the next morning thanks to our basement flooding while I was asleep (true story!).
The downside of being spoiled rotten by God, the universe and whatever other forces that may be, is that my character in the face of a challenge was underdeveloped to say the least. If I wasn’t the best at something, or didn’t get it on the first try, I didn’t want to try at all. In my mind, there were so many things I was great at, so why waste time on the things I wasn’t? (I know, I know, I’m judging me too.)
I’ve grown a lot since my My Twin Doll days, but even as an adult, and a business owner at that, there are things in my life that I’ve opted to ignore, problems I’ve refused to try to solve, because I don’t already know the answers.
I feed myself stories about how one day I’ll be successful enough that I can just hire someone better at it, or one day I’ll fall in love with a man who will know exactly what to do (I know! I know! still judging myself 🤢 #badfeminist ), and these stories let me bury my head an inch deeper in the sand.
This month I’m choosing to focus on a few things that do not come naturally to me like saving money, deep cleaning my home and being vulnerable even when it’s uncomfortable. Because maybe the ways in which God hasn’t spoiled me are opportunities for me to spoil myself.
Anyways, hold me accountable, will you?
What are you working on this month?